That Happened

What am I supposed to say
when the world is so grey
that even waking from my bed
is a chore?

What do I even do
to make it up to you
when there's nothing left between us
anymore?

I failed to make amends,
though I never really tried
out of fear of rejection,
pain,
and being ostracized.

I don't really miss you,
nor do I care.
I want to forget you
so that I don't have to remember
that even thinking I liked you
was a God damned mistake.